How do I know you?

Two in two days? Woooo Hooo!!! Have you ever met someone that you know you have met before but have no clue where? This happens to me quite frequently and drives me mad until I remember how I know this person. I am currently still stewing over two people one I have know for almost 4 years and I know I met him before but neither of us know where from. Sometimes I think he is toying with me and really knows but its something embarrassing so he doesn't want to tell me, other times I think he just isn't as obsessive compulsive as I am! The second I met yesterday and I said you look very familiar to me. I apparently did not seem at all familiar to her. She began to ramble off ways that I may know her... Nope. This got me questioning how would someone know me? I am not generally outgoing. I don't join things! Are you defined by what you do? Its almost like a list of major accomplishments in ones life. If someone thought they knew me I would mention HS, my family members, my employers, and maybe friend groups. But this is also a lot of who I consider myself to be! I am a large reflection of who I surround myself with. So who are you think about how you would guess someone might have met you and then think if that might reflect who you are? Am I the only one?

Who am I?

Hello Any and All! Sorry I have been absent so long. I have not forgot about you and yes I still love you. I have come to the realization that I may not be who I thought I was.... This past week I have been told twice that I am a "lovely person very comfortable with new people." For those of you who may know me, as I suspect anyone who reads this is, this is not me. I am generally a wall flower, socially awkward, not a joiner, and I LIKE this about myself. I am 100% comfortable with the idea of who I thought I was but something changed and I am not sure when it happened. Maybe when I had my second little angel they did something to me, maybe I had a brain transplant. Perhaps they inserted some chip that secretes happy hormones... I am not sure, its a working theory! This change has helped me with my job promotion, I think! I am now floating around to different locations of my job. The old me would have totally freaked out, I don't do well in new environments, I like to know all the personal dynamics between people so I know where I stand. Know its not that I don't care but I just I don't feel like it matters. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? If anone has any suggestions or happenes to see a chip under my skin please just let me know, this woman needs answers!

Worried about our futre?

Parents, time to panic about our kids' education

It seems like not a day goes by anymore that I don't hear one person or another wanting change from our country. We want more jobs, more money, less debt, more action, more stability. We want someone to tell us everything will be just fine. Well I am here to say it can be but WE need to do something about it. My cousin who is in education posted the above article to The Facebook and it just got my wheels turning on this slow Tuesday morning. If you don't want to read the article that's fine, the main point I pulled from it is that we are all worried where the country is going but no one is looking at our less then impressive education system and whats coming out of it. The way I see it with all these people out of work I would think parents would have more time to help their children at home. I think too many parents take a back seat roll in their children's education. That's what school is for. Right? NO! We don't want the government to tell us if we can/should have kids that we cant support but we want them to be responsible for feeding them, paying their medical bills, and educating them. How would we feel if Obama stood on capital hill and repeated what I just said? The whole damn country would be wanting to kick his ass out of the white house but its absolutely true. I think we as Americans need to take a step back and realize that we are acting like a bunch of kids. We want our cake and we want to eat it too. We need to take the wheel when it comes to our children's future because they will be the ones deciding/providing ours. We continue to let our children's education fall by the wayside because we are too focused on fighting about medicare and social security. This is of course how I feel if you don't like it there is a little red X in the corner just click it!

Making a baby...

So have you ever known someone who thinks they have the most beautiful child ever? Yes! Of course you have all good parents think there own child is exceptionally beautiful. I personally think its because they love them so much. I know I think my daughter is exceptionally beautiful. All this being said I do have a problem with people who shove their kids down your throat. They wave them around in front of your face, the ask you to vote for them for every cute baby contest in the world, they give you pictures that you feel obligated to keep and hang on your fridge, they expect to ooo and ahhh of what an amazing thing you did making this little person. Well from this day on I am done. I don't generally like others peoples kids unless I find them extraordinary in some way. Some are more cute, some are smarter, I do have more of an attachment of they are a close friends or family members but I am not the person who loves all kids. Please, please do not expect me to tell you over and over how cute your kid is, if you have to ask it probably isn't. Sorry! It may be later in life. It may have a great personality. But I really just don't care about your kid. I don't expect you to care about mine either. I have had many strangers tell me how beautiful my own daughter is and how she should model yada yada but she isn't nice, she does what she wants and sometimes that is great and peachy and other times it includes a scowl and pissy attitude. I know who my kid is and I am proud of every little thing she does but I don't need a stranger to tell me how awesome she is, I KNOW! So I guess what I am saying is if you want someone to marvel at the fact that you made a baby I probably am not the best person to be around... :)

Open lines of communication

How is it that no matter what I get in some sort of argument with Mr. Pia over one of us swearing that the other told us something that was never said. We talk all the time, we talk about almost everything that goes on in our daily lives even if the other doesn't really understand the work lingo the other is using yet for things that drive us up the wall like scheduling conflicts who is suppose to do what household chore or get milk from the store all is lost. We usually don't stay mad at each other for very long but I swear we need a stenographer in our house to mediate yes Mrs. Pia you did in fact tell Mr. Pia that at 7:15 pm while he watched TV and ignored you. Why is it that once you in a long term relationship with someone little things that they do just make you crazy? I love Mr. Pia, but really does he have to put the pots and pans in the sink even though he never does the dishes and I always ask him not to? I am sure I do things to make him crazy also but surely he does more things. What to do?

Media Whores!

Happy Tuesday! I am feeling the need to see if I am crazy or if the world is crazy so I am hoping you all might be able to help. I do not understand for the life of me all this news coverage of horrific crimes that are committed. Why is it that as soon as one major trail is done another starts playing on the TV. Don't people have a enough struggles and problems in their lives that they really need to watch this depressing shit all day? These are disgusting things that good people are inviting into their homes and are fascinated with. I can understand reading a mystery novel, I can get watching a horror movie, what I don't understand is taking a real life persons pain and suffering and going through it detail by detail trying listening to disgusting facts of disgusting deeds and being captivated by it. If I was forced to watch this I would be physically ill. Listening to this day in and day out eats away at a persons humanity and just like one television show about 8 kids is going to make crazy people go out and try to have 18 kids to get on TV watching this shit is going to get to crazy people and more sick things are going to keep happening. I know that we must learn from our past mistakes and know what happens in the world around us but do really need each and every little dirty detail? Cant we just accept that sometimes sick people do horrible things to very innocent people, trust they they are made to account for those actions and not dwell on the sick perverseness of it all? I would really like to know your take on this, let me know if you think we as a society are sharing too much...

Beauty?

First let me start off by apologizing for not posting in so long I have had some great plans that were then eaten by the baby brain and thus gone forever! So without further delay let talk. How do feel about the saying beauty is in the eye of the beholder? Is that really true? Something that is beautiful is always beautiful right? I could look at my daughter and always see the most beautiful little girl I have ever seen, even when she hasn't had a bath in a few days and wont let me brush her hair. Does everyone see what I see though? Are my eyes trained to see what my heart tells me? Lets take family and kids out of it. When I look at a Jackson Pollock painting I feel moved inside it amazes me that something so beautiful can be on a canvas in front of me. Some people don't understand his work though they simply see a mess on a canvas. So whats your take is beauty universal? Who says what is wonderful? Is it all subjective?